“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
(Neil Gaiman.)

So Me & This guy Have Been seeing eachother sine May and he got back with his ex girlfriend but wed still speak hd cheat on her , wed spend many days together till she found out an stopped. TILL we got back at it again , & he breaks up make up with her , Im oviesely the 2nd Girl ): But I wanna be so much more , & i know me & him wud be so happy together . We have great chemistry . but i dont wanna keep getting hurt but letting go of him hurts even more. so i go living thru every day knowing what i know , & still stay loving him </3

Now that you have gone so far, do you remember me?
Have I turned to the last pages of your book?
Or is it that you just don’t want me anymore.

We have to move on with life, I do agree,
I can’t ask you to stay any longer, can I?
You seem so confused with your decision,
Shall I ask you, what is this nonsense?

You leave with thousand questions unanswered,
I cant accept your silence as an answer,
There seems to be no meaning of our relation now,
From being best friends to no one.
It makes me laugh and then to cry,
To shatter the best relation of my life.

It isn’t your mistake as you say, neither is it mine as I say,
We both knew what was happening and where it was going.
How wrong was I that night.
Thinking you felt the same as I felt.

You are a bastard,
And to call you my friend, I am ashamed,
You want to avoid me fine,
Let me say, I don need you anymore in my life.

My heart will be hard as a rock and deep as an ocean,
I always thought I couldn’t hate you so much,
But then you make me feel used and thrown to dwell by self
This makes me feel ashamed of my self.

All those times you forgot,
When you needed me, I was always there,
Even though I went through a lot in life,
Every time you called, I had an answer fine.

You called me every time you needed me,
And I would agree, with no second thoughts
But you never had the time for me
But then I never felt hurt

But now that you have turned out to be
Ignorant and arrogant,
I say this not as your friend anymore.
You shall never have me anymore
In difficult times, you shall remember me
My help is what you will need then
But then I am going to be the same
Arrogant and ignorant,
I am going to hurt you the same
And be a complete rude bitch
You will see this not as my anger,
But as my vengenance to your betrayal

Even when I say this my heart aches,
Coz friend, I love you always..
For the good times we have spent and
The joys we have shared..

How I detest that one night,
How I wish I knew, I wasn’t safe with you,
How I wish I never knew a friend like you.

I didn’t expect these things to happen
You came along all of a sudden
The day we became friends and became closer
Till time goes by
We come to see clearly the feelings we hardly try to keep on our own…

As I reminisce & reflect on my sorrow
Another day passed;
I can’t forget that painful scenario
That left me in so much pain

The scenario that really broke my heart
And tore me so far apart…
In that instant, my world stopped turning
Peace of mind I wished; to settle everything

But this love won’t easily give up
Revenge planned but failed to do
So; why would I avoid those who hate me?
If I could make their lives miserable just by EXISTING

Sometimes I think it have been too unfair,
Sufferings here, conflicts here…
Very complicated….
Hatred seems to be everywhere!!!

I wanna shout on top
So that my message will be heard
“Enough! Let go for it hurts me so badly!!!
Don’t let blindness cover you!”

As I tried walked out of your life
I wondered if I could continue to fight
To stop the massive aches inside
And heighten the happiness of tide…

The moment came
I have grown and learned something new
And woke up with the reality
Believing that you’ll be mine someday…

Suddenly all over; a day came
And amazed me a lot
I never expected I had a big part of you ;D
Naive it might sound but it’s really true…

You’re one of the friends I know
The Best of them all that I can’t easily let go
And these time just for “MY everything”
All sorrows, pain that had been encountered
will be left behind from
THE PAST!!

<–i made dis for MY von..